Meta angst

Feeling of a sense of wholeness now. I have a tidy living room, chatted to Mich about Cyberpunk game character creation (still need to sort out my druid for the D&D game), and pondered a bit on my next webcomic project where I plan to actually do something vaguely original.

But I do get into these mopey moods from time to time. I'm lacking two things in my life - someone to love, and a purpose. Not sure where to get either from. I have pondered my past lack of success in my love life. Seems to come down to: too oblivious; too shy; lacked the self esteem; too scared to take the risk; or me not pursuing for reasons that now I simply can't fathom. I've got over the shyness and self esteem issues. Wish I could deal with oblivious.

As for purpose... I'm just lazy, and easily distracted.