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Jun. 9th, 2009 06:52 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
luckykaaOkay - that event turned out to be fun. Mia for forfeits was a laugh. Tallards was fun. Chatting to people was okay. Gladiatorial games in Novaks amused me for a bit. Gatecrashing a wedding, offending them and then being forced to make a public apology was great!
But there were times when I was struggling for things to do.
Part of the problem is that I don't have any significant IC goals apart from a bit of gambling and fighting. There's a bigger problem though.
I'm really shy!
I find it really really hard to get past the anxiety and go talk to people. Once I'm past it I stop worrying. With enough of a prod, I'll happily get up in front of a group of people of any size, but there's that damn barrier that I find a real struggle to cross. There are ways of dealing with it. Alcohol helps me relax. I don't even need a lot of it (it may just be psychological but shyness is an inherently psychological problem so that's academic). If I really need to I can just dive in (I owe a lot to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
tinkerbell1980 in that respect) but that really does take quite a bit out of me.
I can do this a lot more easily if I have decent motivation. I've played confident outgoing characters before. Or loud boisterous characters.
My character in Maelstrom is none of these things. I realised in hindsight there was a situation I could have got involved in and get up to my neck in troubles, but my inherent nature rebelled. It makes it difficult to play.
I love the scholars. I seem to have managed ot offend some people, and to make some reasonable acquaintances and I'd hate to lose that but I'm really a bit stuck on what to do with the character. I can't go around offending just offending people every event but I'm really not sure what I do want to do.
But there were times when I was struggling for things to do.
Part of the problem is that I don't have any significant IC goals apart from a bit of gambling and fighting. There's a bigger problem though.
I'm really shy!
I find it really really hard to get past the anxiety and go talk to people. Once I'm past it I stop worrying. With enough of a prod, I'll happily get up in front of a group of people of any size, but there's that damn barrier that I find a real struggle to cross. There are ways of dealing with it. Alcohol helps me relax. I don't even need a lot of it (it may just be psychological but shyness is an inherently psychological problem so that's academic). If I really need to I can just dive in (I owe a lot to
tinkerbell1980 in that respect) but that really does take quite a bit out of me.I can do this a lot more easily if I have decent motivation. I've played confident outgoing characters before. Or loud boisterous characters.
My character in Maelstrom is none of these things. I realised in hindsight there was a situation I could have got involved in and get up to my neck in troubles, but my inherent nature rebelled. It makes it difficult to play.
I love the scholars. I seem to have managed ot offend some people, and to make some reasonable acquaintances and I'd hate to lose that but I'm really a bit stuck on what to do with the character. I can't go around offending just offending people every event but I'm really not sure what I do want to do.
