Nano no-no

[luckykaa]

I've abandoned it nano for this year. 

I don't need to justify the decision, but I shall.

Ultimately it comes down to stress.  And I seem to have been suffering from that a lot.  Lots of things were causing me stress. 

Stress isn't always a bad thing.  It's something that motivates me if managed properly.  I need a little pressure and a bit of urgency otherwise I just stagnate.  But it needs to be balanced.

So, there's work.  It's pretty difficult stuff where I keep running into walls.  I have no social life. 

I also need to get a lot of stuff done at the weekends.  If I need to do shopping I need to wait for the weekend.  I'm at work when all the interesting shops are open in Cheltenham, so weekends I have to do any shopping that I want to get done, do any cleaning (I have no idea how my place gets untidy when I'm not there but it does), sort out accounts and most of the household admin type stuff I need to do. And also I feel a certain obligation to see my parents from time to time.  A chunk of Sunday is spent driving back to Cheltenham so half of that day is gone as well. 

On top of this I have to do social stuff. I'll get very miserable and lonely if I don't see friends and I'm a little concerned I might lose touch with people.  Even arranging to see friends can be stressful.  People have their own lives to lead, and their own plans and obligations to people other than me. 

So anyway, on top of this, there was Nanowrimo.  I was keeping up with the word count.  The story was forming.  I'm actually quite happy with the whole plot thing.  But I simply wasn't enjoying it.  It was being a chore rather than a fun little challenge.  I was getting a headache just thinking about it.  And there's no community.  The Chelt/Glos community does all its meetups when I'm at work, and I can't get to the Brighton ones.  I have other things I could be writing.  I have two previous Nanos to finish, the wizard story I started, and the Anchor fanfic I was writing.  And you know, I could do nano.  I've proved it twice.  That's not even an interesting challenge any more. 

So I'll abandon Nano but not necessarily what I'm writing.  That can be written at a more leisurely pace

But the stress has lifted.  My evenings are my own to do what I want with. 

And I'd just like to add thanks to all my friends who are there to help me de-stress.  You're awesome.

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[emma-roberts80.livejournal.com]

Hey :) I hope your feeling less stress and you got your happy self back again :) anyway just want to pass you a huge masived hug from OZ :) nothing new to mention oh yes almost forgot *blows a kiss to your cheek* byeeeeeeeeeee