luckykaa

That acting class on Monday was fun.
Had a job interview - Contract position.  An actual contract where I still get treated as disposable but at least get paid for the privilege. (yay) .
Guildford (not so great).
Thought I'd screwed up the telephone interview (boo).
But turns out they liked me (yay).
No update on shower.  Still cold (boo).
Only half a day at work today. (yay).
Valiantly fought tech in a battle of wits.  Lost but with honour.  (yay).
One of my bestest friends getting married (yay).
Still feeling decidedly single.
Still undecided about whether I want to do Maelstrom this time.  Seriously having difficulty getting my head into LARP.

Died.  Ooops.  Wasn't quite sure what I'd do with the character next event anyway.  Didn't get the kicking I was promised.  Tired.  Will add context later. 

Can now talk about event 2.   Will add context later.  Not now.  Too tired. 

Will also need to talk about event 4.  Need to gen a new character.  Have ideas.  Too tired to go into detail. 

I wish I could submit and play a character a day after the event.  I've just had an idea for a far better character in M&M.

It's partial buyers remorse, partly because I know the setting, but mainly it's down to the fact that I have no stress.  No major event until next Maelstrom, work is starting to calm down a little, and that now it doesn't really matter.  This means there are no obstacles or worry about getting anything done in time.  My character was thrown together in something of a rush when I realised there was so little time for the one I created.  I now realise I could have adjusted the concept quite easily.  Now I'll have to wait until next year. 

Ah well.  I have plenty of time to plan for Maelstrom.  Actually toying with interesting ideas involving props (and coffee). Still need to work out other things I might do but plenty of time to toy with ideas.

Well, my imagination is now turned back on.  Hopefully I'll be able to create!

Okay - that event turned out to be fun.  Mia for forfeits was a laugh.  Tallards was fun.  Chatting to people was okay.  Gladiatorial games in Novaks amused me for a bit.  Gatecrashing a wedding, offending them and then being forced to make a public apology was great! 

But there were times when I was struggling for things to do.

Part of the problem is that I don't have any significant IC goals apart from a bit of gambling and fighting.  There's a bigger problem though.

I'm really shy!

I find it really really hard to get past the anxiety and go talk to people.  Once I'm past it I stop worrying.  With enough of a prod, I'll happily get up in front of a group of people of any size, but there's that damn barrier that I find a real struggle to cross.  There are ways of dealing with it.  Alcohol helps me relax.  I don't even need a lot of it (it may just be psychological but shyness is an inherently psychological problem so that's academic).  If I really need to I can just dive in (I owe a lot to tinkerbell1980 in that respect) but that really does take quite a bit out of me.

I can do this a lot more easily if I have decent motivation.  I've played confident outgoing characters before.    Or loud boisterous characters.

My character in Maelstrom is none of these things.  I realised in hindsight there was a situation I could have got involved in and get up to my neck in troubles, but my inherent nature rebelled.  It makes it difficult to play. 

I love the scholars.  I seem to have managed ot offend some people, and to make some reasonable acquaintances and I'd hate to lose that but I'm really a bit stuck on what to do with the character.  I can't go around offending just offending people every event but I'm really not sure what I do want to do. 

Serenity LARP next month. Still not booked.

Part of the problem is inability to acquire a crew but the other problems are lack of time and indecisiveness.

Who do I want to be? What do I want to do? Maybe I should sign up with Trez. He's short on crew.

Maybe I should base the character on costume. I have waistcoats, hats (I rather like the Fedora), round sunglasses, all sorts of obvious bits and pieces, as well as a sewing machine and some ability to make clothes.

Maybe I could be Idaho James, famed archaelogist, or Maurice the gangster of Love, or some runaway indentured servant or something.

Still undecided about Brighton Below.  At least I have some idea of new characters.  Either a misdirected supergenius with an obsession that made him end up down here (and oodles of curses) or I just pinch the Flight Officer Carsleton-Kingsbury concept (a Captain Jack costume can find all kinds of uses). Old soldiers never die.  They just fade away.  Totally true, but where do they fade away to!?

Either that or I go see the_smut_fairy . 

And still need to work out whether I'm going to Worldcon in Montreal.  First I need to work out what other things are happening at about the same time.  Yes, Tink!  I'm looking at you!

"Darklight are proud to present Brighton Below 7."

Oh, bloody hell!!  It's not like there's not another 7 LARP events that I want to do this summer. 

Three Maelstroms,
Two Nyctophobias,
Aliens and Alienation,
Serenity.
And now Brighton Below. 

I think I might have to let one of them drop. 

Will need to create characters for most of the ones I actually do go to. 

For various complex reasons, Nyctophobia seems most likely to go, and that just makes me feel guilty. 

I need more time, more money, and more days off.  And a spare self.

As an aside - I was trying to think whether Neverwhere could be transferred to Bristol.  I found coming up with decent puns tricky.  About the only decent idea I could think of was The Avon Ladies; The very thought of them terrifies me. 

Well, that worked better for me than the last one.

( Generally FOIP free. Cerrtainly nothing to spoil your game )

Holiday.

Need to work out where to go on holiday this year.  Am tempoted to combine it with a convention.  Either Worldcon or one of the big US cons (Dragoncon or SDComic con).  Possibly finnCon.  Who else wants to come?

Eurovision.

Not sure what I plan to do for this.  I can either host, go to someone else's party of go to the Duke Of York..  Thoughts?

LARP.

Serenity LARP is happening on 12-14th June.  Will have to actually play.  First I need to check I'm not busy that weekend.  Then I need a concept for a crew.  Then I need crew.  Join up now!  See the 'verse!

Puppetland.

Still determined to run a game of this.  omylouse  and lemming_man  seem keen and have character ideas.  Anyone else from the HONHOI or possibly even ex-HoG direction?

Watchmen

Anyone want to come and see this on Sunday?

So, I hoped to do 10000 words this weekend and got ahead but managed a lousy 5000 or so so I'm still a day and a bit behind schedule.  (Edit: - Google forced me to split it into 2 parts so part 1 is now here and part 2 is now here)

Would help if I'd had a bit more sleep.  Unfortunately I seem to keep having fun.  Really need to stop doing that.  

But it was fun.  Ate sushi at Moshi-moshi then went for drinks.  It was very tasty though.  Really need to find an excuse to go there again.  I would suggest my 32¼th birthday but I'm really busy that week.  Got back home kinda late. 

Managed to get some plot development happening on Saturday.  Then went to Brighton below where penguin_worship 's character bossed my character around a lot and stuff happened, and it was lots of fun, then when to the bearcat house to drink lots.  Somehow I managed to avoid any need to drink at all, which was nice and meant I could get home.  Fun weekend.  Met a lot of people I know from larpage.  

And today I tried writing lots more.  And not quite failling but not writing nearly as much as I hoped. 

Once again I feel an urge for more LARP.  I want to do an Evening of Science and Mystery at some point if they run another game, but that's up towards Birmingham and the journey is hard to justify for a one evening event.  If other people are interested in heading up with me though it would be worth it.